Thursday, February 7, 2013

Working towards my list of happy

          Happiness doesn't have to make sense. Happiness is a feeling of extreme content; it is heavily linked with desire. Therefore, though when I go through my list and a lot of the items don't connect with one another, that is okay because I am staying true to what I desire. I can be random, or as I would like to call myself: diverse, atypical, AWESOME, so I have random things on my list. Amongst the random things on my list is to attend a bartender workshop.

        I don't drink; I don't handle alcohol well. The reason why I want to attend a bartender workshop is just because. I like to have a random assortment of skills and learning how to mix drinks sounds like I'll become lots of fun during parties. Plus, it is one of those skills that I can perhaps use to make some extra checks in the future. And, I am proud to say I am taking steps toward it. 

        I have recently purchased a livingsocial deal towards it. Now, there are tons of bartender workshop in NYC and even more so that offers a deal. But, I did my research and this place is amongst the more reasonably priced and best reviewed (I only trust places that have yelp reviews). Therefore, if you are like me and like to do random things, hop on the deal now. (I would greatly appreciate if you would click on the link so I can get referral credit, since-hey!- if you are planning to get it, why not help a girl out and give me some credit, Karma could be awesome.) If that's not your thing, start your thing! Now is the time!

      I am a true believer of if I can do, so can you. So I'm making progress and I hope you are too!

So much love,
atypical
JaneDoe.


Here's the link: http://www.livingsocial.com/deals/493362?rpi=104099512&ref=personalized-link-box-104099512&rui=28540324

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Sunday, February 3, 2013

Attitude!

           Attitude is everything. A wise mentor of mine once told me that "one's attitude decides one's altitude" and I took it to heart. Therefore, I always try to stay positive. Essentially, that's the main message in all secrets to success. Think about the law of attraction (that likes attracts like so be positive) and the idea of manifesting-- they all share the belief that your perspective/attitude makes a difference. I don't how true this is but I think a positive attitude brings more joy so I'll stick with that.

         This is the break down of how my week went and how attitude comes into play: I started the week off with a melt down. I was in my darkened room, bawling over the fact that I missed a dance class due to train malfunction. Of course the real reason wasn't about missing the dance class, but it was a tipping point. I was just at a point where I felt like I'm a failure. I feel like I always fail and I know that failures are okay if you strive high enough, but I was so sick of failing. Anyway, so I was crying and sulking and then I decided to stop. I wrote my blog post and I felt a new sense of "It's going to be okay." And, it was.

         If you've been reading my posts, then you should sense that I'm the type of person that has this raging desire to conquer all. Recently, life has just been pretty boring and that frustrates me a bit. Doing nothing is fine and great, I can't just do nothing all the time though. So, with all the free time that I had, I decided to apply for a few jobs that caught my eye. However, it has been three weeks and I had yet to receive any reply from them. Two days after that bawling incident-- I finally received replies back from two jobs that fit into my life so well and filled my life with so many possibilities. One job is set; I will be part of a team who writes mathematical questions for a company. This job is extremely flexible and provides me the freedom to explore other fields while still managing to have the financial security. The other job is completely out of my comfort zone. However, since discovering this particular job, I felt like a new door has opened for me. This job is still up in the air, they have contacted me for a group interview. I have never done a group interview before so the anticipation of the group interview caused me much distress. I was unable to sleep well since hearing the exciting news. I was freaking out and thinking of all the ways I could stick my foot in my mouth and mess this up.

        With all the built up anticipation, this was how I arrived back to my positive attitude: right before the interview, I went to Starbucks and I wrote a letter to myself. In the letter to myself, I hit a few points that I would like to share with you. I asked and answered these questions:
1) Who are you?
2) What do you want? Why are you doing what you are doing?
3) Will you be okay?
I feel like if you could answer those questions confidently then you should feel reassured. It reassured me. The group interview went smoothly. I am now waiting to hear back from them before I update you with what's in store for me and what the job is.

         So the point of sharing what happened this past week with you is that I really felt like my positive belief that "it's going to be okay" plays a part in the outcome of this week. I mean, I don't think my positive attitude plays a part in me getting the first job and the group interview for the latter one; but I do think it influences how I was seen by my interviewer during the group interview. If I was to dwell on failure, then I would not be able to socialize with people in a positive manner. In turn, I would not be able to do well on the group interview. Of course it is too soon to say if the interview went well, but it did went better than I could hope for so I am happy with it. Anyway, I had great week and I think being positive helps. SO, BE HAPPY! Sending you warm wishes in this lovely month of love!

So much love,
atypical
JaneDoe.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Just a list

          As mentioned in a previous post, I love lists! Thus, whenever I'm in need of a sense of direction or a how-to in accomplishing something, I go back to creating a list. January has kind of been a flop. But, being Chinese and all, I decided to start over February with prep work starting now. Here's a more detailed list of specific things I want to do that will make me happy. I intend to do them all and thus, as my blog title suggests, begin true adventures of atypicalJaneDoe.


Things to do:
-Continue to blog
-Do some arts and craft projects
-Experiment with cooking stuff
-Read more books of interest
-Take new dance classes
-Create dance routines
-Thai Massage workshop
-Take a bartender workshop
-Attempt to become a model
-Yoga Certification
-Pilates Certification
-Random Certifications

          I've been failing to do exactly what I want to and I've said that the point of this blog is to document my failures but...I intend to at least succeed in attempting. By that I mean that I intend to make attempts with each thing listed above. Wish me luck and I'm open for suggestions so throw some my way! I hope you are doing well and finding your path.

So much love,
atypical
JaneDoe. 
 


Sunday, January 20, 2013

What is it that you truly desire?

Figuring out the answer to this question took a lot longer than I anticipated. I mean, I really should have known better than to attempt to tackle a question like this as a new blogger. Since my last post, two weeks ago, I think I have figured out my answer(s) to this question. Behold-my answer is as follow:

           My first response to this question is that I want world peace. I know, it sounds so tacky, but I'm completely sincere when I say I desire world peace. However, I’m not saying this because I’m trying to be a beauty queen; I’m saying it because it’s a great ideal. Picture Utopia: a place with no wars, no cruelty, only kindness. Why wouldn’t I desire world peace? Simply, I wish people could have more compassion for one another. But, that desire is on a very grand scale and it is not something I wake up thinking about each morning. Truthfully, I don’t think I can do much. At least I cannot do enough to the extent that I desire. But my first response to this question was that, so I thought it should be noted.
           
            After a few other silly thoughts (I want to be a superhero! I want to be a superstar! I want to conquer the world!),I've decided it is time to snap back to reality. So, I rephrased the question to-What is it that I truly desire and that it is possible for me to achieve it in this lifetime? With that rephrased question, a few answers emerged. 
  1. I want to be successful and happy.
  2. I desire to make a positive difference in the world; I want to make an impact and leave my mark on this place called Earth.
  3. I crave an outlet to express myself genuinely, wholesomely. 
  4. I want to be a do-er, a person that takes action.
  5. Lastly, I want to be so ridiculously honest with myself and other people. I don't want to be so proper and polite because I feel like I get taken advantage of and misinterpreted by others and I don't like it one bit.
         Yet, observing my list, I stumbled upon another problem. None of my answers provide direction. It is so easy to say "I want this, I want that." But, it is difficult to figure out how. How will I become successful and happy? How will I make an impact? How should I express myself? How am I going to take action? The answer: I don't know.

         And, going with the 5th answer on my list-here's the complete truth. I am so confused, frustrated, scared, and lost. I want so much in life and I have no idea how to do it. I know the core of what I want, but the complete picture is a bit hazy. Hence I started this blog. This blog serves as a place for me to express myself, a place for me to make attempts at figuring out what I'm meant for in life, a place for atypicalJaneDoe to thrive. So, I guess...what I truly desire is to never lose the will to keep pushing forward towards what I desire. It sounds really repetitive, and it is, but I think that is it. I hope you were able to figure out what you truly desire as well and go from there.

So much love,
atypical
JaneDoe. 



Sunday, January 6, 2013

Doing Nothing

          As a New Yorker, the thought of idly doing nothing is offensive. Why would anyone want to waste precious time? As the saying goes, time is money and, money matters. Money equates with success. The more productively you spend your time, the faster you can achieve your goals. Perhaps that’s why I’m always in a rush. It is the sense of urgency. I don’t always know what I need to do but I always feel the need to do something; the sense of urgency plagues me. However, following my resolution to do what makes me happy, this week I did absolutely nothing.

          The truth is though most of us have this urgency to do something, sometimes doing nothing is important too; sometimes that’s exactly what we need, what we want. We are constantly moving and rushing, but what are we rushing towards? It is an exhausting process and currently, I just want to stay still and lounge. I’m grateful that I am able to do just that the past week. Here’s a brief summary of what I did this past week:

1/1- A sleep-in day after an all-nighter New Year’s Eve party; I must have slept for 20+hours.
1/2- Dentist visit; library visit; and good food with good company.
1/3- Catching up with long-lost friends over Korean BBQ; book reading.
1/4- Marathon of childhood TV series that I use to watch; online games; continue reading books.
1/5- Work; more TV series marathon.

Though seemingly uneventful, the past week makes me happy. The uneventful week allows me to submerge myself in idleness and, in my idle state I feel a sense of calm that I fail to secure during busy times.

          Yet, it is unlikely that I will, or can, continue to spend my weeks ahead in this fashion. Old habits die hard; I still prefer busy days. But, for the past week, I am able to enjoy the stillness of everything and that’s nice too. In fact, it serves as a reminder that stillness is acceptable. It is okay if we take a break once in a while. Still, I think it is time for me to reboot. To get myself back on track, I have an assignment for myself, which I would like to extend to you as well. The assignment is to answer the following question: What is it truly that you desire?

So much love,
atypical
JaneDoe.

Lesson Learned: “Be sure you enjoy yourself wherever you are, even if others consider you are wasting your time; remember that time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time!”