Doing Nothing

          As a New Yorker, the thought of idly doing nothing is offensive. Why would anyone want to waste precious time? As the saying goes, time is money and, money matters. Money equates with success. The more productively you spend your time, the faster you can achieve your goals. Perhaps that’s why I’m always in a rush. It is the sense of urgency. I don’t always know what I need to do but I always feel the need to do something; the sense of urgency plagues me. However, following my resolution to do what makes me happy, this week I did absolutely nothing.

          The truth is though most of us have this urgency to do something, sometimes doing nothing is important too; sometimes that’s exactly what we need, what we want. We are constantly moving and rushing, but what are we rushing towards? It is an exhausting process and currently, I just want to stay still and lounge. I’m grateful that I am able to do just that the past week. Here’s a brief summary of what I did this past week:

1/1- A sleep-in day after an all-nighter New Year’s Eve party; I must have slept for 20+hours.

1/2- Dentist visit; library visit; and good food with good company.
1/3- Catching up with long-lost friends over Korean BBQ; book reading.

1/4- Marathon of childhood TV series that I use to watch; online games; continue reading books.
1/5- Work; more TV series marathon.

Though seemingly uneventful, the past week makes me happy. The uneventful week allows me to submerge myself in idleness and, in my idle state I feel a sense of calm that I fail to secure during busy times.

          Yet, it is unlikely that I will, or can, continue to spend my weeks ahead in this fashion. Old habits die hard; I still prefer busy days. But, for the past week, I am able to enjoy the stillness of everything and that’s nice too. In fact, it serves as a reminder that stillness is acceptable. It is okay if we take a break once in a while. Still, I think it is time for me to reboot. To get myself back on track, I have an assignment for myself, which I would like to extend to you as well. The assignment is to answer the following question: What is it truly that you desire?

So much love,
atypicalJaneDoe.

Lesson Learned: “Be sure you enjoy yourself wherever you are, even if others consider you are wasting your time; remember that time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time!”